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I don't understand

Posted by Brandon Patton on Thursday, March 14, 2019 @ 9:38 AM

"Are you the coming one?"

Matthew 11:3

This question was asked by John baptist. What's wrong with it? Is it not a legitimate question? The problem was not the question, it was who asked it. John was the man "sent by God" to announce the coming of Jesus. He was the one that baptized Him. He was the one that pointed Him out to the people and declared "behold the Lamb of God". Why would he be asking if Jesus was the Messiah after all of this? Simple answer that speaks to a struggle we all share. After John pointed to Him and Jesus began His ministry, Jesus didn't act like John had expected Him to. John preached that the Messiah would come to "burn up the chaff with unquenchable fire". He painted a picture of a God that would bring harsh judgement. He spoke of the "wrath to come" when Jesus showed up. However, Jesus, as He began to interact with people was not at all like that. He healed the undeserving, forgave the worst of sinners, ate with the most notorious criminals, and smiled on those struggling with life. John was looking for judgement. Jesus brought mercy and kindness. The fact that God was not acting like John expected (notice that word), caused him to question who He really was. Do we not all suffer with the same problem? Do you have expectations of God and how He will act? Do I really need to ask you if He has done everything just the way you thought He would? The god that we have invented in our religious circles is very predictable and easy to understand. (funny how he tends to look a lot like us) The true God of the Bible is beyond human understanding. He can be loved, adored, worshipped, obeyed, enjoyed, and followed. But, He can never be figured out and explained fully by mere mortals. He is always good, but, He is never fully understood. He is much too big for me to squeeze into my little mind or "godbox". Jesus' answer to John is life saving for all of us. He replied to John's inquiry, "blessed is he who is not offended by me".  Grab this life altering truth. "If you will let me run my world the way I want to, even if you don't understand the whys and hows, I can be good to you as I have promised to. My blessing comes freely to those who are content not to have to understand everything." Are you there? Have you chosen to trust (notice that word) Him when nothing makes sense? You will never experience "the peace that passes understanding" until you can give up having to understand everything. The more I get to know Him, the more I realize how little I know about Him. However, the more I get to know Him the more I trust Him, and the less I need to know everything. I have surrendered my previous expectations of Him and replaced them with the simple truth that He is good. All  the time.  

Father, I don't have to understand you to walk with you. I don't have to see where we are going to follow you. I don't even have to like the path to stay on it. All I have to know is if you love me. When I can't understand your ways, I'll trust your heart.

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